Here I sit. I cannot sleep I do not know the answer. I’m thinking about a million things and waiting for the laundry to be done in the dryer.

I should try to lay down soon, so I don’t feel like crap tomorrow.

I don’t feel tired. I know later when I do, the fatigue will sneak in and fan the flames of depression.

Then I will reach for some sort of caffeinated elixir, and be right back where I started.

If only there was the promise of some exciting dreams once I fell asleep. My last dream was about a snowy parking lot and a truck being stolen. I want my dreams to be more than that!

6 thoughts on “insomnia”

  1. Oh my, yes – I can relate, very much. I’ve been an intermittent insomniac for the last 7 years now, and I saw myself in your post. I could have written it, but you did a much better job 😊

    Fanning the flames of depression, that’s so true, too. Take care of You, my lovely 💞

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  2. I go to bed at about 11pm and get up at 5:30 am, get dressed and take the dogs out. Sometimes I waken at 4(ish) and can’t get back to sleep, so I just get up and either potter about ( quietly) or read a book, then follow routine. From time to time I may wake up at 3(ish) and not get back to sleep and that’s annoying, so I have a slight idea of how you feel, but thankfully this is not very often.

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  3. I was thinking ( I know, I’ll have a rest) but if you thought of nice things you might have nice dreams, or you could sit and listen to Sinatra. How can you get bad thoughts listening to Sinatra?

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    1. Yes it is definitely a good idea to think of nice things or listen to some relaxing music.
      Last night I fell asleep on the couch. I ended up half watching parts a Lords of the Rings movie and then parts of A Clockwork Orange. I’d never seen A Clockwork Orange and for some reason thought it was about space. It was definitely not a movie to induce pleasant thoughts.
      Right now I am waiting for the teen son to get home and then it is off to bed.


  4. Insomnia is the worst! I can usually fall to sleep with no problem, but if I wake up at three in the morning….forget it! I just spend the rest of the night worrying about things I can’t control.

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