Lent starts today. It is after midnight as I write, so I guess it is technically Ash Wednesday. Even though I am no longer a practicing Catholic, I try to put some thought in to Lent. Usually I think about something I can do, rather than something I can give up.
I’d thought about writing the post about being selfish before I thought about Lent.
Sometimes as a woman I feel as if there is extra pressure not to appear selfish to others. Right now I am going through a season in life where I am trying to do everything to make family my number one priority. By that I mean my husband and my kids, but not my in laws or my own family of origin. I don’t necessarily feel the need to explain myself, but somehow a part of me cares how others might view me. So, no I don’t want to work an extra shift at my job. No, my husband and I would just rather stay home, rather than spend some time with family members we aren’t so crazy about. You get the idea.
Yesterday at work was a bit crazy. As I’ve mentioned before I am a nurse. I was focused on getting the important things done, instead of being a pillow fluffer. I closed my office door so I could try to get my work done more quickly without distractions. Of course I look more approachable if my door is open. I spent part of my work day taking part in an educational function. I guess since I was one of the organizers I was supposed to buy treats out of my own pocket. But because I’m selfish, lazy AND cheap, I skipped buying the treats.
Maybe during Lent, I’ll give more though to negotiating the idea of being selfish. How can one be loving to others while still meeting their own needs.