As a kid I was painfully shy. Growing up, some of this shyness has went away. Sometimes though having difficult conversations can be hard though. That side of me that I try to keep under wraps-the socially awkward side-makes me freeze up in conflict. I want to do some problem solving but also tell someone at work to f* off, but in a way that won’t get me in trouble. I’m trying to figure out how to have this conversation so my words don’t come out in an awkward mess. As I write this I picture myself eye rolling, ending the conversation abruptly and stomping away. Don’t get the wrong idea, this isn’t frequent behavior for me, but I know the potential is there.
The coworker is also socially awkward, and comes off as disrespectful to a lot of the people I supervise. She is one to constantly pick out the faults of others, but not able to see her own faults or the big picture of what we are trying to accomplish.
I don’t know if you have ever watched M*A*S*H. I picture my coworker as Frank Burns. I would be Charles Winchester. Both characters were jerks in their own way and foils for Hawkeye and other cast members. Though these characters weren’t on the show at the same time, they often had trouble getting along with others. Frank Burns’ character on the show was frequently trying to find fault with others. Charles Winchester was sort of pompous, but I feel underneath he had more redeeming qualities than Frank Burns.While I think I mostly get along with others pretty well, I feel disconnected at trying to problem solve with this woman.
I’m going to give myself a night to sleep on it an hope to have more wisdom in the morning.