I’m a nurse. My supervisor has changed staffing policies without telling anyone what was going on. Fewer people to deal with challenging situations. There is the potential for even dangerous situations. I speak my mind in the easiest way possible…via the keyboard.
Venting my concerns gets me nowhere, in fact I find out that things are worse than what I understood as I correspond with two of the people involved. What is funny is that M, a nurse that I have seen go from brand new grad to someone in a supervisory capacity…..would have protested mightily, and even cried, if someone told her that she would have to work under these expectations. Now she’s a supervisor….she doesn’t care.
What I don’t understand about myself though, is why I have regret about expressing my concerns. Is there a part of me doesn’t want to be seen as difficult? Or maybe I should have thought more on the matter before speaking? Or perhaps it is the sense of futility I feel about having wasted my effort expressing myself. Or perhaps I feel as my external facade of having control and a stiff upper lip is starting to crumble and it scares me.